Why can’t I remember much from age 10 and before??
I’m mainly blogging about events after age 10. There is a reason for that – I can’t remember much before that. I have snapshots of scenes in my head that flash for certain events and that is all. It’s like a picture was taken and is hanging in my brain of that one event. What causes this and why cannot I remember? I know that at that time is when the horrible things were going on with my sister when she was sent to the mental hospital, my brother sent to the same mental hospital. Shortly after he was sent to military school. I think my older sister went away to high school too around that time. What is there to remember that I’m not remembering? Should I even try??
I do remember strange behaviors that possibly could mean I was sexually abused or involved in some activity. The way I acted out things with friends and memories I have – are those normal?
I started out majoring in psych in college but after the 2 yrs of intro courses figured out I wasn’t going to figure out my family issues and went to the MIS route as I mentioned before.
Does anyone know about normal sexual acting out in girls of elementary school age – say probably 2nd grade?
is there such thing as thing as normal acting out sexually in 2nd grade i don’t know but my experience is playing doctor, i’ll show you mine, if you show me yours, and my cousin french or any kiss, kissing me for for the 1st time, but the odd thing is my memory is exactly the same as yours, nothing but snapshots b4 10yrs and atlhough my sister and mom reassure i was very loved by both parents i hardly remember my parents at all but mostly my sister, she was kidnapped 4 10yrs by her natural father and we found her when she was 10 and I was 5, thought I was an only child, 2wks earlier my mom had a baby, soon after came 2 more babies, daddy made her get a job at the prison where he worked. a few yrs later they divorced my mom remarried an abusive man who was a Capt at the prison they all worked at, and had 2 more kids (good Catholic mom)not the dads tho, then my oldest sister killed her boyfriend, went to prison,and my mom flipped and left the abusive husband of 14yrs I finally got used to, to marry a black inmate at the prison she worked at for 17 yrs cuz it was Gods will, now I’m not here to say it’s not I’m here to say I’m awful confused and need lots of therapy but not sure what issue is getting there, but she is still married to the inmate he is still in prison and its still God’s will and now she is like supposed to save the world or something so if she does you can say you heard it first here, if not well its a good story I sure nobody believed Moses or Jesus, I just don’t know what to believe, esp about my loss of memory from childhood, it could be anything from taking meds when I was young, stress, not getting sleep, of course trauma, emotional or physical, I found some good articles on line if yiur interested, i’ll send them too you, but I’m slow to respond to my email often, plus my husband is home right now and travels a lot. feeling like Im heasding for a breakdown or trying to come out of one, or some people think i just want attention, maybe a little of all esp when u stuff issues for yrs and thought u already dealt, oh well if nothing else it was nice to vent i didnt start out intending to write all this, but thanks for reading it anyway. Big D